I feel like im growing up way too fast..

I wish i could tell my boyfriend just how depressed I am.

But I love him too much to let him no how I am hurting.

That boy is my whole world.

And I don’t think he’d understand,

He would think it was him, and the things we’ve been through.

But it’s not him.

It’s me.

I feel worthless.

And i know he could do so much better.

I wonder sometimes if I was gone who he would be with..

If it would make him a better person.

I feel like i’m sick in the head.

What is wrong with me…

Sometimes I’m just not sure where it is that i belong at.

I don’t think parents realize how many people you have to keep from letting down.

How hard it is to make everyone else happy and content.

Sometimes its hard to make sure the choices make you happy.

I always make the choices that make me unhappy.

I always put everyone before myself.

And that always leaves me, late at night, wondering if this life is even worth it.

I wish my boyfriend knew how i was feeling.

I wish my family knew.

But no, instead here I am telling the world.

Hoping maybe someone feels this way.

Like maybe this life isnt so great.

I really dont want to live sometimes.

There always seems to be more good than bad.

wow.. it just hit me, i’ll be 18 in 6 days.

i graduate in 20..

the time flys..

Well since today is Senior Skip Day, I am not attending school.

But, I will not be staying at home.

I am going to pack a little lunch,

and driving to Philly.

My boyfriend is sick, and in need of lovins <3

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